So I realized yesterday when I posted that I didn´t give the ending to the allergy story! At least what I hope is the ending. I´m pretty sure my mask and latex gloves were to blame for my whole allergy episode. Friday I didn´t use latex at all and though I still was itching, for the first time that week I could tell that it wasn´t getting worse. At the moment I am I would say 95% itch free. It´s amazing! The only bummer is that now I have a full-blown cold, complete with a stuffy head that feels like it´s going to explode. My mom sent me a chicken broth recipe and I was able to make some today. Still not feeling better from the cold but I hope it will work. Drinking lots of liquids!
Now that the VA team is gone, I am feeling a bit homesick. It´s almost so bad that I wish I was going home on August 16th like the originally planned. But I know that I have to do this because God made it happen and there is a reason that He switched the plans for me. Either way, I can´t lie and say it isn´t hard being away from my family, especially my little sister. It makes me so sad that I am missing a full 5 months of her second year of life. I know that going home in November is going to a very happy time.
Sunday night as I sat drinking some tea with honey to soothe my throat, watching everyone else happily rattle on in Spanish, it was easy to think discouraging thoughts such as ``I´ll never, ever, especially by November, understand Spanish.`` But then I remembered- God likes impossible situations. There´s plenty of them in the Bible. The lion´s den. Esther. Jesus dying. When we only live in the possible, in the safe, we can have confidence in our own ability. When we live in the impossible, we are humbled by the realization that we are nothing and that Christ is everything. We have to trust and rely on Him for every step of the way. I don´t need to be down and depressed by the impossible. I can rejoice because whatever happens, Christ has the victory. I can give my best and trust God with everything else. And I can do it with a smile because Christ lives in me. I can expect great things.
